This is an image of hell. I betray the happiness of my heart in order to affirm my anger, or my ideas of how things should be, or to affirm anything other than the reality that springs, not from me, but from God. In the end, it is not God who puts me in heaven or hell, it is my freedom that chooses. Heaven is an invitation that I am free to accept or reject. The way I use my freedom in this life will prepare me for the ultimate moment when I will accept or reject salvation. I will decide whether to go to Jesus and ask for salvation or instead to affirm myself.