I heard the garage door go up. And then it went down.
I hollered for the three-year-old, who was happily playing in my mother-in-law’s garage with the dog, to stop.
The garage door went up and down again. And then again.
There were about three shades of red starting to seep into my vision as I got up from the table where I was trying to work.
I opened the screen door, took a step, and was brought to my knees with searing pain in my foot.
She looked surprised and on the edge of crying. The red in my vision was tempered now by the throbbing my foot, and I yelled something at her as I looked down at the garden rake.
A few hours and two stitches later, with my foot propped up, I was trying to laugh about things. But I couldn’t get past the feeling that I had been brought to my knees for a reason.
Now, mind you, I HATE the expression “Everything happens for a reason.” It feels like a cop-out and an excuse.
And yet…and yet, I couldn’t shake the knowledge that, just as I was going to holler at my three-year-old for her garage door open-and-close-a-thon, I crippled myself.
It felt significant somehow. Was there a reason? Or was it just further proof that I should look before I leap?
As I was nursing the baby and then soothing the baby and then comforting the snot-ridden three-year-old that night, I felt the background of throbbing in my foot. I couldn’t walk right. I couldn’t leap. I couldn’t respond as I wanted.
And then it hit me, sitting in my chair with the baby: I was pierced in the bottom of my foot with a blunt object. I thought of Jesus, hanging on the cross, nails holding him in place.
Perhaps this is my chance to have a glimpse–a tiny little peek–at the pain Jesus endured for me. Maybe I can use this as an opportunity to slow down and spend some time with God.
Oh, and I’ll be watching my steps a little more closely, too.
ouchie. goober.
and slow down, huh?
{{{hugs}}}
Goober is RIGHT. 🙂 Hugs back. 🙂
ouchie. goober.
and slow down, huh?
{{{hugs}}}
Oh my goodness. I can only imagine how that must hurt. It is one of those really crappy things that makes us slow down and a) ask why me, God? and b) realize we are human and bad stuff happens to us for no good reason. There isn’t anything you would have done differently. Nor should you have. Yet, I am humbled that in all of it you find a grace to share with us. Let us pray for you and with you that we find more of His grace (and that maybe we dont need a rake in the foot to receive it).
Mark, you have to be one of the best commenters at making me feel better at
whatever sense I’ve tried to make out of things. I think the truth is that
there is often NO sense to things, not at the time anyway. Thanks for the
prayers! 🙂
I once , while barefoot, stepped on a board with a nail sticking out of it. I tried to recover as best I could one-footed, but I’d pierced the bottom of my foot, and it HURT. Hope your pain eases soon — it’s hard to chase the kids with a hole in your foot.
Thanks, Cat. This still just strikes me as…RIDICULOUS! And it doesn’t hurt
as much as it did. I assume (hope!) that’s going to continue to be the
case…