I can’t help but think of how little room sin needs to get firmly rooted in me. It only needs a small crack in my resolve, a little light from the not-quite-shut curtain, a tiny seed of doubt.
Sometimes the weeds don’t look so bad. In fact, sometimes they add color and texture to an otherwise desolate area. Sometimes they flower and make you forget that they are a weed. Sometimes, you might say, they are a blessing.
Sin is the same way. Sometimes it does not seem so bad. Sometimes it is, in fact, so much more convenient than the truth of God’s plan. Sometimes we are tempted to think of sin as a blessing, as a better alternative, as a shortcut to the desired end.
And then I realize, at some point, that the garden of your soul is filled with weeds, and when I put on your gloves and buckle down to get dirty, I realize that the roots of these weeds go deep, intertwine with the plants I want to keep, infiltrate every part of my life. I realize that only God has the Round-up that will take care of these babies, and only by his grace will I be able to keep them from taking over again. I find humiliation in this knowledge, and relief. I don’t have to do it by myself.
Inevitably, I am also reminded about the wisdom of prevention. My brother-in-law showed me the beauty of mulch for keeping weeds out – but if the mulch is applied late in the summer, it doesn’t do as effective a job. In the same way, when I attack my sins early on, they are easier to change, especially if they involve habits. However, if I wait until later, it becomes a larger challenge.
There’s probably no way in this life to avoid having the small room available for sin to take root. What I can do, though, is feed the soil of my soul with the sacraments that will help me keep sin at bay. I can surround myself with Jesus, who conquered all sin, and keep company with the saints and people of good influence. I can try to avoid the near occasions that surround me, and pray my way through the ones I stumble into.
A weed needs so little room, and so does sin. I need a lot of help to keep the way clear. Those weeds don’t waste any time in getting started…and neither should I!